Wow, it is still hard to believe that the 2010 Total Makeover Challenge has come to an end. It seemed to drag on at times and then fly right on by other times. Definitely weigh in nights dragged on, lol. I have been feeling very positive as of late and know that I can attribute alot of this to the contest and the great, accepting, fun gorup of ladies I got a chance to get to know and compete with. Not that it ever really felt like we were competing against each other it felt more like we all bonded and were competing against that silly square box that strangly determines ones weight, the scale!
I have to think back sometimes and recall the utter feelings of disappointment I had in myself prior to this contest. I was so not loving my physical appearance yet was not really willing to do much to change it. I was uncomfortably comfortable spending a majority of my time sitting on the couch eating bon bons and watching television. Inside though I was sad, lonely and frightened of ballooning to an even higher weight. I tried many times to convince myself that I was okay with the fatness but there was not one thing about me that was okay with it. It was getting to the point where I was even insecure to meet best friends at the mall because I did not like how I looked.
It is such an amazing feeling knowing that I have made some healthy progress and have been able to influence and motivate others to change as well. That in itself is my reward.
